Saturday, 2 April 2016

when things changed

ever thought of life will be good after got married
but it ain't goes like how i used to plan
things just changed like it should be
while it shouldn't be at all

life
what is life
what is life should be

from stranger to someone important
from single to attached
from lady to women
from miss to mrs
from one to two (pregnant)

i left home for a guy
i left parents 
i left everything for a marriage

i always thought life is easy, smooth
but
now i am down at the hill

i am hurt 
i am all alone
i am not me 
who am i?

pregnancy comes after registered of married
out of sudden
i have to face tons of changes
i need to quit my job
i need to stay healthy
i need to start worrying as baby not stable in my womb
i need to be extra careful as always have bleeding
i cant take heavy thing
i got no appetite to eat
i cant sleep well
i cant go wherever i want to
i cant take cold drinks or foods even the weather hot like hell
i cant diet
i cant do a lot of things
i need to take medicine

i am sick of all the argument
i am sick of all the shouting
i am sick of all the fighting
i am sick of u
i am sick of your family
stop protecting you while you did something wrong
stop deny that you are right with all the shit you did to me
stop hurting me stop cheating on me stop lying at me

you're not supportive
you're not true
you're such a son of a bitch